Wednesday, November 12, 2025

Rooted in Town

I never regret traveling so much when I was younger, and went all out in my twenties and thirties; rarely staying in Singapore for more than three weeks at a go. Every weekend was a long weekend hanging out in nearby cities less than a 5-hour flight out. Those memories made and experiences absorbed, truly last a lifetime. While I do get a touch wistful every now and then about not traveling, I'm not resentful or discontented. I made a conscious choice to stay in town for Choya. I don't want to miss out on her short years. Well, it's not as if I don't travel, I do pop out on short trips. Like really short. Well, the husband cannot manage Choya on his own for more than six days. 

'Bring Choya to travel', people say. I had a serious whirl about it. No. Weighing in at 7.5kg and totalling 10kg in an airline-approved carrier, Choya busts all weight limits aboard commercial airlines. I'm not checking her into animal cargo for no good reason; a vacation isn't sufficient. To each pet owner's choice. 

I could fly her in a private jet. I do not want to join those newly popped up pet travel agencies because I can do a better job at logistics and sorting out administrative details even for pets. You know. Ha! BUT. Excuse me, I don't print money, so no to flying in a private jet to a vacation unless we have the free schedule to close up the flat for six months, put aside work and head out of town. Of course we can. But neither the husband or I are inclined to.  

I love it when friends send me photos when they're on vacation. I could stalk their social media, but when they take an extra step to send it to me in our chat windows, I feel extra loved, like they brought me along for that hour to their location. When people ask me if I'd like anything from the city they're in, there's usually nothing I want. I appreciate these little texts and words and photos. These make the best souvenirs for me. 

When J sent me a photo of the last bits of autumn, and blue skies and all, I sighed. This particular photo of gingko leaves on a sunny day. It's a gorgeous shot. (Who isn't in Japan right now! Tsk!) Ahhhh the turn of the seasons. I kinda miss that crisp feel of the cold. I shall renew all these experiences and begin the traveling again in the next season of life. For this season, I am rooted here.  

イチョウ 葉っぱ.

Tuesday, November 11, 2025

'The Takeover by Team Meatsmith'


Meatsmith
trotted out a special one-night-only menu that was so different from their usual offerings. But the mains were still smoked, as what their kitchen does. Heh. It was themed as 'The Takeover by Team Meatsmith'

I didn't dare to drink too much since I had a tough gym class the next day. Did a modest two glasses of an Australian blanc de blancs, and drank loads of sparkling water to keep hydrated. The husband wasn't coming to this class; so he happily had a Boulevardier and a highball. 

Starters arrived together. There were cute cups of cornbread with fried chicken that held a welcomed bit of spicy maple syrup and jalapeño. I'm not a big fan of oysters but I didn't mind the coal-kissed oysters with smoked ikura and garlic butter. The last starter to be eaten was the beef tartare with herb emulsion on potato pavé

Had a 'salad' in the form of crispy rojak with smoked zucchini, fried asparagus and pickled radish. The addition of sun-dried tomato was really quite welcomed. The hae-ko was on point. I did miss the doughstick. Heh. 


It was time for the mains! Since we were two pax, the dishes came in a communal style. The assam fish was delicious. The moment I saw it on the menu, I already wanted to eat it! It came as a generous fillet of plank-smoked grouper with charred cherry tomato and ginger flower foam

The final protein was a Filipino-style chicken inasal. It was a big quarter with breast meat and drum stick. The meat was grilled and marinated in soda herb, lechon sauce (it's pretty much calamansi, vinegar, lemongrass, garlic, ginger, and annatto oil) and served on a bed of garlic mash. The husband was very pleased with it. I didn't care about the skin. So he had all the meat. This version was less oily. Ha! 

To my own surprise, I didn’t mind the dessert. The pastry chef named it 'The Coal'. Heh. I didn’t fully embrace the sugar, but I didn’t mind the black sesame sorbet. I wasn’t hot about the accompanying carbone dolce, flourless cake squares or berry coulis. There were also petit fours of tiny tarts in two flavors of lemon meringue, and pistachio chocolate. 

Monday, November 10, 2025

The Stories & Your Story


There's quite a bit of grim humor in 'Final Boy' by Sam Lipsyte, published in The New Yorker on October 19, 2025. This is a classic story of 'struggling writers vs authenticity vs rent vs life'. 

The narrator Rick is a writer of fan fiction about the eighties sitcom 'Charles in Charge'. This is a real sitcom that ran for five seasons from 1984 to 1990, created by Michael Jacobs, Barbara Weisberg and Craig Kellem.

Rick lives with his roommate Bennett in the latter's deceased aunt's one-bedroom apartment. Bennett is in a coma from a near-drowning in the bathtub from the use of dissociative anesthetics. Rick doesn't know if Bennett actually inherited the apartment or they were all simply squatting there. It turns out that they are squatting. His aunt's daughter Tabitha turned up to ask for it back because she wants to sell it. So Rick got kicked out.

Sure, I read fan fiction of many things. There's so much crap floating around out there, but there are some good stories that have been spun. All writers start from somewhere right? And writing fan fiction doesn't mean you can't have original thought even if you used the original script's characters. Anyway. This is what Rick wants to do, and of course he has his opinions about the other writers in the same sphere, and spinning off the sitcom. 

The show also ignited some long-dormant ambitions. What I saw now in the “Charles in Charge” universe was a vast and sumptuous staging ground for my literary imagination. I’d stumbled upon a new frame, or filter, for my song. Everything I’d ever wanted to say about what it was like, for this human, to think and dream and feel could now be passed through the sieve of Charles.

I was not alone. The “Charles in Charge” community is tiny but vibrant. There are other skalds, or griots, or troubadours devoted to the goings on in the Pembroke (and, later, Powell) home, and when the reruns hit the streamers our world grew. But I consider myself a pioneer among the scribes, and while the others dash off mere extrapolative scenarios, often treacly, or pornographic, or both, I like to think I have smuggled some poetry and serious thought into the proceedings, especially in installments like “The Groundless Ground,” where I cooked up for Charles a few scheduling dilemmas with which to explore Heideggerian notions of temporality.

I’d found my audience, was even making a little extra scratch from paid subscribers—enough, along with my P.O.S. checks, to pitch in for the maintenance on the apartment. But now all I’d achieved teetered on Tabitha.

There's a lot of tension in this story, and a lot of real world angst. Rick and Bennett's real-life stories run parallel to Rick's fiction and what he talks to his clients about in his job with an AI therapy company. Then he kinda got 'emotional' with a client, and the AI therapy company called time on his employment. That was about the same thing as Rick getting kicked out of the apartment, and Bennett likely dying and never waking up from his coma. 

In an interview with the same journal, the author is asked on his definition of authenticity within the story. 

Rick also operates as a kind of human interface for an A.I. therapy company, a “beef puppet for a large language model,” reading advice from a screen to clients he sees remotely. Both his writing and his therapy work involve a certain slant on what authenticity means in various contexts. How were you thinking about this balance?

For Rick, there is a strict line between his writing and his therapy work. With his fiction, he may be using the preëxisting universe of an old sitcom for his frame—perhaps like using an old legend about a prince in the Danish court—but, in the end, these are Rick’s stories and Rick’s songs, and he’s aiming to achieve human connection with his writing. He eschews using A.I. to write his fiction. And he rejects the idea that we are “just lesser versions of ChatGPT,” or that, even if we are, we are each trained with a unique swirl of experiences and interactions with art. That’s what can be authentic, our proprietary blends, as it were. The remote therapy job disgusts Rick precisely because it erases the human. He’s basically a tool of the A.I. and of a cynical corporation, much to the detriment of his clients, which is why he must make his hero’s journey and take up the lance against the large-language-model dragons.

It isn't all gloomy though. When you're really down and can't get worse, you can only climb up right? Rick is in a pickle. In this despair and having to live in a shelter and such, Rick still has his passion and his words, and he could write still. He would have to keep up with his passion. He could still have paid subscribers and earn enough to get by. The stories become a story. 

The story ended with, 

Also, I wondered, what happened to Charles’s buddy, Buddy? Could a rare cancer of the blood, per my latest installment, put him in a coma? I pictured sweet, bumbling Buddy Lembeck hooked up to that vile accordion, straining to lift himself out of his intubated grave, giving everything to address his best and only friend one last time, to gargle a mucus-slick song of love before falling into dreamless murk. Such a moment might serve as this closing installment’s final beat, but it all seemed too sentimental, implausible, obscene. My subscribers would never buy it. But I knew it could happen. It had, in fact, happened. How could I render this truth, make others see? This was my challenge, my task. It wouldn’t be easy. It would take the bravest iteration of Rick. I would summon all my craft, everything I’d learned as a master weaver of fanfictional tapestries, my warp and weft, my tricks, my tics, my private prompts, and toss the whole tangled heap away. I would dump out the vats, start afresh. I would become a model trained on nothing but pure feeling, never knowing what comes next. Crouched there on the stone steps of the newish cathedral, I flipped my laptop open, got cracking.