This is so it (pun intended) man.
The IT uninstalled my Google Search Toolbar WITHOUT telling me. They uninstalled in such a way that when I tried to re-install it, it will never pop up anymore.
Nobody thought it fit to tell me that they had uninstalled it. I spent a good 10 minutes wondering what the hell was wrong. Then I called the helpline. Only then, did they grudgingly admit that they didn't encourage the office to install any sort of Toolbars. "You can still access Google page! Surf on Mozilla?" the guy helpfully suggested.
Gritted my teeth and put the phone down. I understand why they removed the Search Toolbar. It's not just about IT or the lack of it. It's about them being plain rude. It's about restricting my freedom. Much of my life is online. Take that away from me and you might as well kill me.
I'm sick and tired of the high-handedness of it all. My rose-colored lenses have come off. Beginning to feel stiffled. I've learnt all that I want to know about the organization and its infrastructure. I've understood a little of its bureaucracy and absolute hierarchy. This place erodes my individuality. I have to fight so hard to keep it.
The scary thing is, a colleague actually said that "There is no space for individuality. People should be in teams and all." That is one big wake-up call. I understand where I stand. Without a voice.
The IT uninstalled my Google Search Toolbar WITHOUT telling me. They uninstalled in such a way that when I tried to re-install it, it will never pop up anymore.
Nobody thought it fit to tell me that they had uninstalled it. I spent a good 10 minutes wondering what the hell was wrong. Then I called the helpline. Only then, did they grudgingly admit that they didn't encourage the office to install any sort of Toolbars. "You can still access Google page! Surf on Mozilla?" the guy helpfully suggested.
Gritted my teeth and put the phone down. I understand why they removed the Search Toolbar. It's not just about IT or the lack of it. It's about them being plain rude. It's about restricting my freedom. Much of my life is online. Take that away from me and you might as well kill me.
I'm sick and tired of the high-handedness of it all. My rose-colored lenses have come off. Beginning to feel stiffled. I've learnt all that I want to know about the organization and its infrastructure. I've understood a little of its bureaucracy and absolute hierarchy. This place erodes my individuality. I have to fight so hard to keep it.
The scary thing is, a colleague actually said that "There is no space for individuality. People should be in teams and all." That is one big wake-up call. I understand where I stand. Without a voice.
18 comments:
Gosh. Am sure with yr contacts n all, u can find a better and less ‘restrictive’ place. Didn’t know u were in a (semi?) govt thingy, I can imagine wat its like there. Take it easy and treat yrself to Tomo, bet u’ll feel better after that! *hugs*
you sound so torn.
it's not that you're spoilt. but your ideals are not meant for the organization. they ought to breathe free among the sparkling waters of the blue isles.
come away and play then.
cavalock: hah. i'm so obvious huh? *wry grin* :) u said the magic word. TOMO! and thanks for the vote of confidence in me.
jazzgal: i love you girl. hire me please.
maybe when u cool down, u won't feel so violently about it anymore?
sigh. your complaint sounds so familiar. my first & last jobs were statutory boards. i joined a 2nd time cos i thought it would have changed after so many yrs, but it didn't. i'm sure your talent will be put to better use elsewhere that will also make you happier. all the best! just don't return to it like i did many yrs later with their lure of good pay, thinking they've changed. they don't. ;P
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This is nostalgic.
A career in retail awaits you!
hallo. knowing you, what resignation are you talking about? RESIGNATION PER SE? or resignation to how it's going to be?
Awe.. it's so freaking rigid... with their so many called rules n regulations, it's definitely not for an imp! Fly away, impie... u'll be so much happier...
if you actually need the salary, you'd swallow it all. you wouldn't even fight. what for?
oh wah. actually i'm impressed u lasted as long as u did oredi.
hey babe, if you have a choice, obviously you should listen to your heart. Life is short! Just try to do what makes you happy. :)
Oh yeah.. I did not get to comment on the hair. It's lovely!! The right length for it too. Maybe when my hair's grown a little longer, I might contemplate that too. :)
Cool down, babe. Grab a drink, have a good meal with your man. And then find another job or better still, take a break somewhere before getting back to work again.
let me make some sense here.
eh. you think your father company ah? can anyhow anyhow demand for things.
if this is the square box, don't like it, don't get into it and don't whine if it doesn't fit ur frame.
climb back right out.
opal: maybe. but this isn't a one-off anger. it's accumulated.
D: well. yes. that pay IS pretty good. so is the bonus. i fell for it hook line and sinker.
miss loi: AH.
JM: besides being a personal shopper, i might fail all else quite miserably.
gerbera: u very clever hor. talk to you more online.
dreamy: :)
anon@1.16pm: very true too.
sinlady: AIYOH. i should have made a bet with you. heee. ;p
jomel: heehhe. i used to bother about image at work. now i don't actually care. i wear what i want!
muffingirl: i will i will! i want to go back to what i was doing. :)
meteor: grrrr. wanna feed n clothe me too?
They cannot afford to let go or change. There will always be an invisible box.
I suppose they will attract pple like you who thinks they can make a difference, but often end up disappointed and then leaving.
And then the powers-to-be think attrition rate is high and again they raise the pay scale...
hmm maybe it's a good place to retire!
lms: and unfortunately, money is the main stayer for many. so that's that. alot have left. and you're right, it's a vicious cycle.
suziew: huh? the islands? hehhehe.
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