Do you like my new work jacket? I bought it in Phnom Penh just 3 days ago. It's made of really beautiful silk. The whole point of buying it is because it ages me terribly. Precisely what I need at work. I'm drawn to fabric and design like that anyway. When I caressed the silk, I idly wondered why I bothered to buy it if I wasn't going to need formal clothes very much longer. The girlfriends pointed out that it could go with jeans and still look chic, instead of making it all dowdy by pairing it with a black dress for the office.
I ran into an old friend today, someone who I worked with alot when I was doing public relations and the writing stuff. She commented that I looked really different now. She was trying really hard not to use the word 'stodgy'. What a pity she had to see me at 9.30am in the morning, not at night or during the weekends. Boo.
The one line she said was particularly poignant. She said, "I remembered you said your dream is to travel and write." My emotions were still raw from you-know-what. The eyes were swollen. It took alot for me not to cry at that moment.
Am I not travelling and writing now? Yes. But oh the irony, such irony. It's not exactly the sort of travelling and writing I used to do. What I do now, isn't the embodiment of my dreams then. I realized my dream for a while, for a good number of years, before I, well, in the friends' words "sold out" and went over to the dark side. It's virtually impossible for me to regain that edge now. I've lost out a good number of years in that industry that a glamourous return is not possible although options have been offered and laid on the table. We'll see.
5 comments:
Why is it impossible? You're still young. You have a brilliant future ahead of you.. just do it! :)
This jacket... it's sharper than the orange one (pls wear it with jeans and show us)... I definitely like this. It suits you.
you will always be sharp, dear imp.
It may be impossible to regain the edge that you had, (I for one don't like the word "impossible") but it's totally possible to return with a NEW edge, one marked by experience and newfound maturity that you've picked up in the passing years.
Love the jacket! It looks textured from the photo & will look chic in jeans and heels.
I think it's never too late to pursue your dreams as long as the passion & interest is still there! :)
jomel: i've lost on certain knowledge of the industry that can't quite be gained back. say writing skills.
tuti: thanks.
kachunknorge + joooness: ah...perhaps. hope the sad brain cells can see the light.
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