Monday, February 09, 2015

37. I Feel Complete.


The one thing I've always sought and still crave, is solitude, and I always find it. It's solitude in its various forms on a daily basis- running errands in the city on my own, visiting spaces alone, ensuring I get to have meals or at least a coffee alone, and much-needed solo vacations, et cetera.

With each passing year on this day of birth, I ask if my conscience is clear, how many inner demons still lurk, and how much baggage I still carry. Theoretically, all these ought to get a little lighter with the shifting sands of time as I learn the consequences of decision-making. Mine is definitely not a road less traveled. It's rather commonplace, almost normal. It's simply a few little decisions that set me apart from the main street and instead, take me on a parallel little lane that skirts around.

God, life and destiny have provided all that I could ever want. The tangible and the intangible. Heart's desires. Friends, blessings, health, an education, privileges and love in all forms. Perhaps two or three regrets; nothing in particular that gnaws at the soul. I find meaning in life, in its various aspects. I've never felt lost, or feel that I lack anything. I'm well aware all these are granted so that I may serve the larger community. My life is complete as it is, as it has been, as it shall hopefully be. May His grace and light guide and prevail. 37. Hey.

11 comments:

tuti said...

as i've always said, you're a good imp. there aren't many around. in your circumstances. and still can have a heart. thank you, always.
the journey that i have traveled with you, albeit only on internet, and not by lack of choice, has been a good one. i am blessed to have known you. and my "people" with me, have also been blessed as such. the journey may soon end, as i embark on another journey. not yet. but the days/months are counting. so i treasure them. as i do now. as they get less. be well, stay well. and i've known a good imp in this stage of my life. bless you forever.

coboypb said...

I was early. Today is your special day! :) Glad to have known you and we are still in touch. Love reading your thoughts and posts here and FB. You are an inspiration :) Happy birthday.

imp said...

coboypb: and we will remain in touch! gotta catch up again. lunch and kopi the last round with everybody zoomed by too fast!

imp said...

tuti: like my grandmothers said something to the effect of 'Live with a humble heart, and open your eyes. Use your bloody brains.' So I did. :P thank you dear tuti. I want to be with you on the new journey too. whenever you're ready. keep me in your thoughts please!

jo said...

I'm a couple of minutes late - Happy birthday, imp! 37's a nice prime number ;) Here's to plenty more safe travels, good meals (coffee too) and a wonderful year. Have a good one.

imp said...

jo: heh. not at all! wishes are always welcome any time. many thanks. xo.

D said...

Happy 37th, Imp! Live life the way you want, to the fullest!

imp said...

D: Thankewww!

h o b o m o b o said...

Happy Belated Birthday Imp! May you be surrounded by love and laughter always. :)

Cavalock said...

Happy Belated Birthday! <^;^>

imp said...

cavalock: :) my thanks.