Monday, September 14, 2026

Aging in this Age of Gloom & Doom


Steeled myself to read Helen Simpson's 'Lub Dub Lub Dub Lub Dub', published in The New Yorker on August 30, 2026. It's never easy to read stories about mortality, aging and friendships. 

Tracey and Lois met for coffee on a hot May morning in London, in the middle of a heatwave. Right now, they're discussing about stovetops and Tracey's new cooker. They are old friends, and are in constant contact. 

Tracey is worried about her recently retired 65-year-old husband Adam's heart, and is attending a CPR workshop after this. Lois is on her way to catch the 10.07 train at Euston to visit her 92-year-old elderly mother living in the Midlands. For all purposes, the story recounts another day in their lives.

The story ends with an oven exploding. Tracey stays at home while Adam heads out to a tennis session. He has been very taken with exercise. Tracey was simply reading while heating up a lasagna when the oven door exploded. Tempered glass bits went everywhere. Luckily she wasn't cut or bleeding.  

I didn't know what to make of it this story. The mundane-ness of it all. Now, the title. It could simply be a reference to the steady march of the days till one dies. Like a heartbeat, plodding steadily till it stops beating. No one could tell when.

Lub dub lub dub lub dub is the noise of the heart beating when you listen with a stethoscope.

In an interview with the same journal, the author is asked if she still envisioned London to be headed for gloom and doom in 2040. She said yes. She had written an earlier story 'Diary of an Interesting Year' (2009) about Britain in 2040, after the 'Big Melt'. The author had taken her interest in climate science research and applied it to the storylines in her writing. 

The author is then asked how old friends would help with this doom and gloom that seems to be the world's future, at this pace it's headed towards.

Later that day, Tracey joins a real-estate agent, Ollie, to look at a flat. She and her husband are thinking about moving into a smaller space. “Downsize and Die,” Ollie says they call it in the office, before catching himself. For Tracey, this is a line to share with Lois. Would aging be a lot grimmer without an old friend like this?

Oh, but surely friends are the flower of life all the way through! Having two or three people on the same wavelength is the ultimate luxury, whether you’re twenty-three or forty-six or ninety-two. Though you’re right—old friends become rarer as the big scythe starts to swish more frequently. And, while you can make new friends, by definition it’s impossible to make new old friends—so you lose your shared past as well.

The unusual thing about Tracey and Lois is that, as well as communicating via WhatsApp, they’ve actually managed to meet IRL and exchange an IRL hug.

Friday, September 11, 2026

Sambal Kacang & Ikan Bilis


I can never say no to sambal kacang and ikan bilis. It goes with everything. It isn't the healthiest, but it makes everything so tasty. E's helper remembered that I love it. When she fried up a batch for the family, E packed a bottle for me. Yayyyy! Hehehehe.

Hoarded the bottle in the fridge. It's precious, these homecooked things. There was a day that began at 5am and ended at 8pm. All I wanted to do was to get home and have a hot shower. There wasn't any plan for dinner. I didn't even want to stop by anywhere to get a take-out. I figured I'd just boil up eggs or something.

When I felt more human and took a look at the fridge, I grinned. There were leftovers. Yay! I never mind leftovers as long as they have been properly kept. There was a small minced pork patty and 80g of white rice. That would do nicely. I didn't feel like boiled eggs, so I seared a sunny-side up. I was hungry, but not that much till I needed a full portion of food or wanted to boil up a bak zhang.

Took out the sambal kacang and ikan bilis, added a dash of sambal belachan too. LOVE. There, that was dinner done at  9.30pm. The small portions wouldn't cost indigestion or affect my sleep. It really wasn't too shabby, and absolutely delicious. I was very pleased with it.

Wednesday, September 09, 2026

Baybeats 2026


This year is the 25th anniversary of Baybeats. Gawwwd I feel old. I've been catching Baybeats since 2003! The programming team went all out this year, and we see it in the awesome line-up. Four days of great music! I'm still reeling from the sheer gloriousness of it all. 

All the shows are free, courtesy of the Esplanade. I love this music festival and its ethos. However, we would need to register for many of these shows, by way of crowd control since the indoor venues have a capacity to adhere to. Getting those tickets was such a pain. The backend was so laggy, full of glitches and problematic. Anyway.

I didn't think I would catch that many shows. But I watched more than I thought I would. I didn't stay for the whole set, and ran between stages. What fun! I began the festival quietly and softly with Soft Pine (Thailand) and Kin Leonn (SG). The haze was manageable, and there was a gorgeous sea breeze wafting in at the Arena (Outdoor Theatre) for all the nights. 

Then it was Typecast (Philippines). I haven't heard them for eons. It was a really fun set. Even I knew the closing song of the set — 'Will You Ever Learn' (from 'Every Cloud and Moss', 2007). I really wanted to like Bugs of Phonon / 聲子蟲 (Taiwan); I appreciate the layering, but they were a bit mehhh and very low energy. Then their drummer kept missing the beat, in all the songs. Walao. How could a drummer not catch it in a band like this? Tsk. I managed to catch the start of Solitude in Bliss (Thailand) before zipping into another show.

I caught a bit of David Boring. The band has been around since 2013, but they haven't been too active since their first album 'Unnatural Objects and Their Humans' in 2017. The post-punk, art-rock and no-wave band released a new album 'Liminal Beings and Their Echoes' in mid January this year. I dunno how indie bands can make music in Hong Kong now. Look at what is happening to the city's booksellers and bookshops every now and then. I suppose if they veer away from politics, they can. But who knows what would run afoul the National Security Law? Anyway. I didn't stay for too long, because their music gets repetitive, and I can't deal with vocals like this. . And tonight, the drummer is behind the synths; he couldn't catch up and that made for a bad anchor. 

It was very nice seeing friends and old acquaintances. There was plenty of young bands, experienced acts and loads of fabulous music for this four-day festival. Here are my two favorite bands of the festival... ... ... 

Dabda (South Korea)

It was by pure chance that I heard the band two years ago. Their genre isn't my usual. But I was looking for music to put into Choya's playlist. She likes this sort of sound. Dabda's first album 'But, All The Shining Things Are' was released in 2020. 

The math rock / dream pop band describes their music as 'pastel psychedelic'. Yes, Choya likes them. I obviously didn't get the lyrics since I understand no Korean. But I get the music. Dabda was really good. Great energy and showmanship on stage. It was really enjoyable. The drummer was awesome live.


Boris (Japan)

OMG OMG. WHAT A SHOW. I can't believe this band has been around for 20 years! It's their 20th anniversary, and they have a mad tour schedule. They named this the '20th Anniversary Tour: 'Pink' (2005), "Do You Remember Pink Days?" '. Hell yeah.

There's much to be said about their work ethics and how good they are. Formed in 1992, this experimental rock band plays music in a genre that I love. This is the very first time I saw them live. What a treat! I knew the band when they were three members. I didn't know Nagata, the previous drummer who left in 1996. Since then, it has been just three musicians — drummer Atsuo Mizuno, bassist Takeshi Ohtani, and guitarist/keyboardist Wata (Yoko Mizuno). I only just learnt that Wata and Atsuo are married with a daughter! But they're so private about it. 

And the sound is HUGE. I saw all the amps and grinned. They blew our faces away. Loud, atmospheric and soul-reaching, prog rock is something elAse. They're also doom metal and experimental rock. 

There was an encore — I was hoping they would play it, and they did — 'Korusu 殺す' (from 'Volume 4: Evil Stack Live', 2020). Boris closed the festival at the Powerhouse. They played for 1.5 hours. WOAH. It's unprecedented for a Baybeats show to last this long! (Most bands play 45 minutes, max. I only recall Amberlin to play an hour in 2009.) This was a full-on show. I LOVED IT SO MUCH! I am so pleased to close out my Baybeats 2026 with Boris. 🖤