It's been a long day filled with meetings and needing to give 100% attention to all the going-ons.
While I still pull double shifts during work trips (fulfilling the morning itinerary; at night to clear emails and file notes), it's not really exhausting.
Sure, I sleep very little on work trips, but I get by on adrenalin and coffee with caffeine. The pace at the office is punishing. So in spite of tight meeting schedules, I actually find work trips a breather somehow, a way to recharge, even if they're 1-day turnaround trips up to Jakarta or Kuala Lumpur.
If I do have 5 minutes alone, that time will be more than enough for me to gather the thoughts to focus on the agenda for the next discussion. Quite fun.
It's a huge challenge to focus on the 'official' work that I'm doing here as well as finishing up the discussions for the private charity projects that are being finalized and put into motion right now. It's all really exciting. The party in my room last night was absolutely exhilarating because the enthusiasm and commitment of the friends and partners (in these side projects) made me feel alive.
Please be assured that I haven't turned into a workaholic because yours truly is damn lazy and scared of hard work. Many aspects of work can induce stress, but it doesn't make me depressed. I've thought of throwing in the towel last year because of a clash in beliefs. But I got over it and grew up a little bit more.
I can only conclude that I truly love my job. It doesn't define me though. It only makes me more aware of how much more I can do in this life, as a human being. At social situations, I don't bother explaining or telling people what I do. I still don't intend to make a career out of it. I only want to be able to contribute positively as best as I can. But I'm curious to see how long I can stay in this job. Bets laid earlier were for me to last a year in this scope. It's been 2; a total of 4 in the industry. Lots of (not monopoly) money and Nogawa/Tatsuya meals have been won out of many friends. Haha.
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whatever it is that you're doing, it sounds like a worthy cause and it is wonderful to be doing something that you believe in.
Do what your heart tells you to, you'll be happier.
wat a great outfit u put together and I admire ur job.. ;)
i'm not placing bets anymore. ouch! u have fun k? just don't change into a stodgy being.
good to know your job is personally rewarding and meaningful. you sound happy :)
mistipurple: hmmm. i don't completely believe in it. but i see the merit and the good points of it.
ice: definitely. always!
mochalatte: hahaha. you're too kind on my boring work suit! but yes, i try to match the colors to look like a tree trunk. heh.
meteor: bet lah. how many more months/years? CHOYY! i won't ever be stodgy! maybe only at work, not after!
sinlady: i am. i control my own happiness!
I wanted to comment on a previous post of yours, but comments have already been closed.
The screenwriter and director of The Nines, John August, has a website if you're interested. He's also on Twitter.
tetanus: thanks dude! i check his twitter from time to time! sorry, i close comments early to prevent spam. ugh.
yes, i remember the time when you wanted to throw in the towel. And aren't you glad you persevered? :) Esp sweetened by the monetary gains and mouth-watering meals... ;)
jomeL: hahaha. more of those would be welcomed then. coz the job per se, the salary is not enough reason to keep me there.
I think it's amazing how you can love your job but still take a step back and understand that it's part of you but NOT you....if you get what I mean. I equated my ability to write and my love for writing with ME as a person and that was when it got murky.
The private project sounds intriguing! Hope to hear more about it soon.
xx
yann: i think that's the reason why i left writing. writing was too much part of me. it was me and it was my job. i couldn't compartmentalize. i didn't want to compromise my beliefs. to that end, i decided to leave that industry completely. my writing is left to blogging and tweeting! and doing the occasional press releases, content stuff and translation for friends!
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